Introduction

 I'm speaking in terms that people will believe.

Life is a dream, one in 25 people had death experiences see https://www.iands.org

They had heightened awareness existed in a state outside time, some could see 360 degrees around,

extra senses see more colours that don't exist on earth, had extra senses.

Some Christian some not, some went to heaven, some hell.

My life due to a dream hormone imbalance is slightly different from what others experience.

I talk about my experiences and get locked up.

Since I was 35 when I hopped my head off the ground in a disco in Perkins Park Stuttgart

With a local Turkish Elvis breakdancer and his friend things got weird.

I woke up with a dirty pants, no idea how I got home.

Also a mark on my 3rd eye position between my forehead where my head hit the pole before falling.

Did I die and break my neck?

A lady knocked respect for women into me, I was a vain drunken nerd simp wasting money on pretty dancers.

The Fred Astaire song diamonds are a ladys best friend was catchy Hollywood bullshit.

I was 5 impressionable and said that's how to get Ginger.

The truth was money can't buy me love, the song wasn't as catchy.

who had cookies but I wasn't getting any.

She beat me up kicking me in the ears like a professional ballerina.

It was beautiful,... like her.

In 2021 I since spent 300 hours on YouTube diagnosing my braindamage from buggy life chess

programming.

Jordan Peterson YouTube, I got my street degree in sociology.

Thank you Jesus, praise you Jesus for making Jordan.

I'm fixed except for being highly strung and unstable, but a lot better than I was.

The shaman swims where the unstable drown.

If you live a life of responsibility, go with the dhao, the flow, are motivated by love not money.

Your life will fix itself.

Sin is dopamine brain hormone, pleasure seeking fixes...

 undisciplined, missing the mark, beginning without the end in mind, leads to Hell,

Shyness is a sin you know you should be doing something else end up in a situation roadblock from wrong thinking.

Cowards go to Hell.

So do those that don't forgive.

Beware, everything we do has consequences into eternity.

 If you've a bad habit  like drinking, your child picks it up, kills someone drink driving it's your fault.

Murphy family sometimes die when I drink Murphys including my aunty Margo Murphy and more some made headlines recently. My mother got cancer when I started drinking. The wages of sin is death.

I might end up as a Murphy bahnshee crying in the night because I have to go back to purgatory or hell.

I don't know everything, I don't know how I will be judged.

I still sin massively, God is playing with my sin nature to give me the best life he can.

Everything is perfect no matter what we do.

We may have to fall into Hell, its character building, call on Jesus's name to  get into Heaven.

If we are stupid and self riteous and don't think we have a karmic debt.

We deserve Hell, we voted for the Devil.

I do my best to trust Jesus.

Happy is those who have not seen yet believe.

I've seen so much I've no doubt God exists.

Seritonin is well done God is proud hormone the "initially" unpleasant habit, like healthy eating and exercise that pays off and becomes like a happy pill when we exercise the good habit.

Basically my life is a 10% magic mushroom fairy dream state, God leaves hints in nature which I interpret, if I get them wrong, I learn something. its fun.

Lack of sleep walking around you hallucinate a bit, this is dreams infecting reality and real from a quantum mechanical experience for you not others.

The schrodinger cat in quantum physics, a hypothetical cat in a box, proposed by Erwin Scroedinger an Austrian genius to show the weirdness of quantum physics, is a cat in a box alive and dead at the same time until you look at it causing collapse of the wave function showing the weirdness of reality.

This hypothetical cat is absolute truth, even Leonard Susskinds holographic principle describes one being fine and alive falling into a black hole while dead to the onlooker outside the hole.

Anti matter is mathematically and i believe really matter travelling backwards in time to alter the past.

PBS Space Time, Up and Atom, and Alvin Ash YouTube and Feynmans lectures on Physics online for your education into quantum physics.